Getting Ready

I finished my tests and got my port put in on Friday.  I'm sure I passed everything and am ready to begin.  Getting the port was a smack in the face reality check and I am SO thankful that Claudia was there with me.  She really helped get me through that day. I could be honest with her about how I was feeling and she helped keep things light with good conversation and humor.

My mom arrived this morning, thank goodness, and we spent the day relaxing and then shopping.  I found out that I will be able to bring in food, my laptop, clothes, etc., so we bought some food and I made some food to bring.  I wanted to have some comfort foods or foods I know I like to help me eat.  I also got some new PJs - nice, soft and warm PJ's.  Hopefully they will help keep me warm.

I am so thankful that my mom can be here with me.  She is a great support and I know that she will make sure that I am taken care of.  Todd will be here in Phoenix with Teya.  I'm grateful that Teya will have one of her parents during this week.  I am also thankful that a wonderful friend of mine, Annette, will be picking Teya up after school.  I don't know what I would do without her.  Her and my great friend Kelly have really helped us with Teya.  They have picked her up from school and taken care of her whenever we have needed over the past weeks.  They are a blessing to have in our lives.

There are so many others that I need to thank.  All the ladies, teachers and moms, at my work, PFT.  They have been such a support to me.  They have taken turns bringing us dinner and this has really been great.  And then there is the owner, Linda, and office manager, Kathy.  They have been awesome with allowing me the time I need for surgery, dr. appts and now treatment.  Thanks to Jeri who is my partner this year.  This is her first year with the 3s and I haven't been able to be there for her.  She has done a great job transitioning into the class with the help of Janet, who stepped in for me.  Thank you Sarah for loaning me Eat Pray Love.  It will be nice to have a new book to read.  Then there is Linda P., who made us 2 casseroles and stopped by for visits. CB & Jon who loaned me movies and some books. All the people who have sent me cards and well wishes.  Thanks to all the people who are praying for me.  I can feel the support!

I feel truly blessed to have so many people in my life, some I know, some I don't, supporting me in so many ways.  Thank you to everyone!

My mom and I head down to Tucson tomorrow morning.  I have a dr.'s appointment to go over all the test results and then we'll contact the hospital to see if there is a bed ready.  If so, we will go and get me checked in. I'll then begin treatment tomorrow afternoon/evening.  This is what I am hoping for.  I do not want to wait until Tuesday as this will push back my getting home by a day.  As I type this I am nervous, but hopeful.  This will be my miracle.  At the end of these 20 days, I will be free of this cancer.  This treatment will be hard, but the result will be worth it.

One of the hardest parts was telling Teya.  I think this was harder than the treatment will be. I was honest with her and she knows about the cancer and the treatment.  It is so hard to look your little girl in the face and tell her about this, but we were both strong.  We cried, but mostly just talked about it.  She is one great little girl and it will be hard to say good-bye to her in the morning.

I am going to try to blog while I am in the hospital, so I can keep everyone posted on how I am doing.  Feel free to call.  If I don't feel up to talking, I won't answer my phone and I'll return your call if I can.

I now need to try to get some sleep.